If I told you how I feel about you
Would you say the same and
If I wrote it in a letter
Would you keep it or throw it away

I never thought I’d feel the way I’m feeling lately
When everything you seem to do just drives me crazy

Every waking day you take my breath away
With every word you say you take my breath away
You look at me that way, baby come what may
I hope that you’ll always know how to take my breath away
How to take my breath away
You told me how you feel about me
Cos I did not know
If you said you’d fill my heart with all your loving
Til it overflowed
I don’t know the way you feel but boy I’m hoping
I always used to hide a way, but now I’m open
Every waking day you take my breath away
With every word you say you take my breath away
You look at me that way, baby come what may
I hope that you’ll always know how to take my breath away
How to take my breath away
Take my breath away
Take my breath away
Take my breath away
Every waking day you take my breath away
With every word you say you take my breath away
You look at me that way, baby come what may
I hope that you’ll always know how to take my breath away
How to take my breath away
(How to take my breath away)
Take my breath away
Take my breath away
(How to take my breath away)
Take my breath away
Take my breath away
Take my breath away
Take my breath away

I JUST DO NOT UNDERSTAND ADULTS.

PARENTS IN PARTICULAR.

WHY DO THEY TELL US NOT TO DO SOMETHING BUT THEY THEMSELVES DO IT.

WHY DO SOME OF THEM STILL HAVE MANNER OF THINKING OF ANCIENT TIMES WHEN WE ARE ALREADY IN THE 21ST CENTURY.

WHY

I REALLY WANT TO KNOW

 

Like whatever.Seriously.

just can’t understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

You should’ve just told me the truth
That I wasn’t the girl for you
Still, I didn’t have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

Although I’ll say I hate you now
Though I’ll shout and curse you out
I’ll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it’s no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing’s true

I won’t be played again
But I will fall in love again

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you’d only love me

Into the night
I will pray that you’re alright
You hurt me so
I just can’t let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I’m the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

Recently i’ve  been watching tv shows that are a pun on me. Like why do all the story lines revolve around the kidney disease known as End Stage Renal Failure? I don’t know why.

After watching these shows, i realize that i’ve been deluding myself. I’m never going to live a normal life, even with dialysis. Heck, i don’t even think i’d live past my 25th birthday. So i wonder why am I pretending that everything’s fine when i know it’s not. Yes, i put on a bloody goddamn brave front but in reality i’m scared as hell that i won’t wake up from my sleep. There’s still alot of things i haven’t done. Like graduate, have a successful career doing the thing i love, repay my parents, fall in love, get married have kids(even though i don’t really like them ), witness my friends start their families, go bungee jumping( even the reverse bungee will do) and a whole lot of other things.

 

Sighs. These won’t turn into reality i suppose. I mean my only hope of living beyond 40 is a kidney transplant. But that’s easier said than done. Who is so generous? Can somebody tell me? It’s not donating $10 you know. For now, all i can do is continue my dialysis treatment and pray that my breath would last till a donor finally appears before me. But lets not hope too much. Having too high hopes makes dissappointment harder to handle. 

Don’t you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don’t you ever say you don’t like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you’re better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there’s nothin’ ’bout you I would change.

I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don’t be afraid if you’ve got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You’ll make it through.

Tell you something.

I’ve been skipping loads of classes. Not that i want to really. Just that not in the mood ok? All i want is be around people i love and familiar with. Not with the yada yada yahoo of my classmtes. Soi instead of going for class i ‘ve been hanging with vik and trena alot. Either that or i hv been lazing around at home.

Yesterday was at Viki’s place again with Trena. They were both yakking away on the phone with their bfs and i was there staring into space. Poor me. haha. Nat!! Where were you?!!! Grr.

Viki buy loads of seaweed:) and fake nails:))  Hehe.a